Thursday, February 25, 2010

the facades torn down away.
one layer after another.
till it becomes raw.


THROBBING HEADACHE. ARGH.

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Dear me,
please stop procrastinating.
Please get off my butt and start doing what I'm thinking of doing.
Please stop being afraid and take a giant step forward, its okay if I trip and fall, but I tried.
At the very least. :)

with love,
me

Friday, February 19, 2010

Those feelings
They keep crawling back.
I hate it.




you've showed me how self-centred you can be,
thank you very much for that.

Monday, February 15, 2010

Yesterday was an awesome day.
It also took my mind off the awful crap and shit nonsense going on right now.


& I thought over the holidays,
it would allow me to forget,allow everyone to forget
But it was harder than I thought,
no matter how hard I try,
it bugs me in the little, hidden corner of my heart.
The part where nobody would ever see and would never know.



P/S: Bon-squared,if you're reading this. I'm not angry with you,not at all and I don't blame you :) Instead, ty ever so much for being there for me.

Saturday, February 13, 2010

DAMN IT. We're all damn freakin' screwed.
You're being a goddamn asshole and I don't really blame you.
Its partly my fault, but majority,yours.
You don't give a shit and jump to conclusions.
Why not put yourself in my shoes and think about it for a minute.
You think its easy facing and dealing with this?
YEAH RIGHT.
PLEASE USE YOUR BRAIN IF YOU HAVE IT.
If I have a hidden agenda, do you think I'll put it explicitly that I played a part?
OBVIOUSLY NOT.
Don't be stupid.

Continue with the conflict,
continue to think that way.
I know you're immature,so it doesn't really matter if I try and explain now,wouldn't it?
Explanations are useless if you don't listen to them,
and I know that.
So, I'm not really gonna bother with that.
You can continue to be the narrow-minded, goddamn self-centred Maycomb community and
I won't really give a shit right now.

I'll only explain ONCE.
AND THAT WILL ONLY HAPPEN IF YOU REALLY TRY AND LISTEN AND STOP INSISTING UPON YOUR VIEWS AND INFLUENCING OTHERS.

You can continue to moan,groan or complain of the unfairness and biasness,
but that only goes to show the reigning self-centred in you.
You should STOP THINKING ABOUT YOURSELF and START THINKING IT FOR EVERYBODY AND FROM MY PERSPECTIVE.
Is it that difficult?
I don't think so.
If you're unable to do that,
I'm sorry,society works just like that.

I DON'T REALLY NEED THIS SHIT RIGHT NOW FROM YOU AND SPOIL MY FESTIVE MOOD.

Its always easy to blame the world,rather than yourself.






P/S: thanks to _______________ for youknowwhat.

P/P/S: also,major thanks to everybody today PLUS buddy,who made me lighten up more, even though you have not realised it.