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Oh my. I need to rant.

2011-05-22T00:14:00.001-07:00

I need to rant. There's so much things going on and all I needed was a tipping point.

How glad am I, that pretty much the people who want to see this,can't.

I'm left hanging by a thread.

Frustration? HELL YEAH.

Okay. Eff this. I can't do it. I just can't.

Found myself

2011-03-30T00:04:00.000-07:00

With memories hidden and buried,

so deep within,

it became forgotten.

As it builds up layer upon layer upon a weak foundation,

it was expected to crumble sooner or later.

Then it happened.

Torrents of words escaped out of my mouth,

words that I've kept buried and hidden for so long.

Words that I were afraid to say,

afraid of judgement,opinions, all let out.

Hidden, as my fingers dance across the keyboard.

My relief stands across, obvious for all to see.

I've found myself again.

No more facades,no more masks.

All torn down,

as He lay them at my feet.

Showing me the infinite number of masks I've put on,

as He guides the way back to Him,

breaking all strongholds.

For they're no match for the almighty God. :)

AHHHH

2010-04-09T08:14:00.000-07:00

AHHHH.
My heart's beating so fast.
I feel so pressurized.
It feels like I'm going into panic attack mode.

Please help me.
I'm trying really hard to make it disappear,
but its not working.

sometimes

2010-04-09T08:05:00.000-07:00

Sometime, I really feel like saying f you.
But He stops me.
You should be glad.

Feels good.

2010-04-08T07:52:00.000-07:00

It felt good,saying directly to you what I really felt.
Maybe that direct-ness frightened you a little,
I don't know.

But I'm glad I said it,even though I was afraid.

"Have fear,do it anyway."-Last week's sermon.
Just what I needed.

AH

2010-04-06T08:17:00.000-07:00

AAAH. I was looking forward to this week. And now its getting really shitty.
Got told that today was our last training session,zomg.
I'l miss all the noisy chatter and all the nonsense stuff we used to do.
I'll miss all the stupid games we played-BLIND BOWLING!
HAHA.
Our old forfeits-CHICKEN DANCE(LOL!)
Our friendly compeitions,which became overly competitive halfway, which will then result into something funny always.

ALL THE FUNNY MOMENTS.
AHAHAHHA. Shinwoo breaking her shoe and using tape to temporarily tape back.
MY SOLE DROPPING!(Embarrassing ttm.)
B1 and twin who always forget stuff-SHOES,BALL,BAG,UNIFORM!
(HAHAHA YOU GUYS ARE WAY AWESOME MAN!)
OUR SINGING SESSIONS! HAHAHAHHA.

I'll miss them so much.
It became part of my life.
Now that its gone,it just doesn't feel right.

PART TWO: NO DANCE TMR. AAAARGHHHH.
I WANTTTT DANCE! >:(
I need to burn calories and lose some weight please!

FUNNY SIDE OF THE WEEK:
I've been getting really absent minded lately,esp during chem!
Last week,we did titration and I had to put solution P into the burette,but I put it into the pipette. Then I realised I put wrongly,needed to redo. Then this time,I poured the other solution Q into the burette,when it was supposed to be in pipette. SAME MISTAKE. WITH THE SAME TWO SOLUTIONS,TWICE! Then shinwoo and tessa were laughing at me. Then I almost walked out of the chem lab today with the freakin goggles! AHAHAHAHHAHAHA. I think I'm utter champion lor. HAHAHA.

PLUS SIDE:
CARNIVAL SATURDAY! Can't wait! :>

facade

2010-02-25T05:50:00.000-08:00

the facades torn down away.
one layer after another.
till it becomes raw.

THROBBING HEADACHE. ARGH.

Dear me

2010-02-23T03:00:00.000-08:00

Dear me,
please stop procrastinating.
Please get off my butt and start doing what I'm thinking of doing.
Please stop being afraid and take a giant step forward, its okay if I trip and fall, but I tried.
At the very least. :)

with love,
me

that

2010-02-19T04:17:00.000-08:00

Those feelings
They keep crawling back.
I hate it.

you've showed me how self-centred you can be,
thank you very much for that.

Great

2010-02-15T20:55:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was an awesome day.
It also took my mind off the awful crap and shit nonsense going on right now.

& I thought over the holidays,
it would allow me to forget,allow everyone to forget
But it was harder than I thought,
no matter how hard I try,
it bugs me in the little, hidden corner of my heart.
The part where nobody would ever see and would never know.

P/S: Bon-squared,if you're reading this. I'm not angry with you,not at all and I don't blame you :) Instead, ty ever so much for being there for me.

damn it

2010-02-13T06:12:00.001-08:00

DAMN IT. We're all damn freakin' screwed.
You're being a goddamn asshole and I don't really blame you.
Its partly my fault, but majority,yours.
You don't give a shit and jump to conclusions.
Why not put yourself in my shoes and think about it for a minute.
You think its easy facing and dealing with this?
YEAH RIGHT.
PLEASE USE YOUR BRAIN IF YOU HAVE IT.
If I have a hidden agenda, do you think I'll put it explicitly that I played a part?
OBVIOUSLY NOT.
Don't be stupid.

Continue with the conflict,
continue to think that way.
I know you're immature,so it doesn't really matter if I try and explain now,wouldn't it?
Explanations are useless if you don't listen to them,
and I know that.
So, I'm not really gonna bother with that.
You can continue to be the narrow-minded, goddamn self-centred Maycomb community and
I won't really give a shit right now.

I'll only explain ONCE.
AND THAT WILL ONLY HAPPEN IF YOU REALLY TRY AND LISTEN AND STOP INSISTING UPON YOUR VIEWS AND INFLUENCING OTHERS.

You can continue to moan,groan or complain of the unfairness and biasness,
but that only goes to show the reigning self-centred in you.
You should STOP THINKING ABOUT YOURSELF and START THINKING IT FOR EVERYBODY AND FROM MY PERSPECTIVE.
Is it that difficult?
I don't think so.
If you're unable to do that,
I'm sorry,society works just like that.

I DON'T REALLY NEED THIS SHIT RIGHT NOW FROM YOU AND SPOIL MY FESTIVE MOOD.

Its always easy to blame the world,rather than yourself.

P/S: thanks to _______________ for youknowwhat.

P/P/S: also,major thanks to everybody today PLUS buddy,who made me lighten up more, even though you have not realised it.

EXHAUSTED!

2010-01-10T07:33:00.000-08:00

It has only been the first week of school and I'm already half-dead. Wonder what will happen when the momentum rises. Maybe get sent to hospital for exhaustion. HAHA. Wa sian. Weekend pass so fast. I NEED MORE SLEEP. GRRR. Missed so many episodes of my shows already,cos no time watch. AHHHHH.

exhaustion,exhaustion please go away;
exhaustion,exhaustion please stay away

The emptiness is still surreal.
Farewell it seems, brings upon emptiness.
After you're gone,
it feels different.
I miss you,lots.

心痛傷淚

2009-12-31T21:38:00.000-08:00

痛了，怎麽辦？
怕呢？又怎麽辦？
哭嗎？

哭是我們最快的反應，
就是不知所措的時候的自然反應。
並且壓不過的時候，淚就會流的更多，更快。

對一件事的害怕，絕對沒有只限制那件事。
事内包括許多其它事，
爾恐懼，害怕只會增加。

怎麽面對呢？
也只能用微笑帶過，
帶一個不能表現害怕，
脆弱和並且笑容滿滿的面具。
用這面具掩蓋害怕，傷痛，
一直到欺騙自己，
或把面具變成現實，
到你原本的模樣，才斯掉。

怕面對，就逃避。
這樣，好嗎？

對我爾言，恐懼和害怕到了這種程度，
絕對是最好的方法。
如果傷到你，真的很抱歉！
但這是我唯一保護自己面對害怕的方法。
對不起。

一直到，害怕推了，走了，
或覺得逃避夠了，
我才能面對。
還不到這段時間時，
我也只好對你抱歉。
真的，很對不起。

NYD!

2009-12-31T10:20:00.000-08:00

Today/yesterday was not really the best of days,but I like to thank you guys for helping me to youknow and that I was the cause of it all. I'm really sorry for all the trouble I caused and at the same time,immersely thank you. You guys really didn't have to do it,but you still did. Especially siewjia. THANKSTHANKSTHANKS! But seriously,no amount of thanks can express my gratitude and blah. Ah,I don't know if you guys get what I'm trying to say,but I really hope you do,cos I'm not too great at expressing myself. :) Anyway,its the start of a new year,so HAPPY NEW YEAR. :)

拼命的上网,闷坏的胸口让我想大声的呐喊.
我努力不放.

夜深了,我怎么办?
寂寞了,谁在身旁?
心情变的好复杂.

心放空了,寂寞好了.

坚强外表下
我脆弱.

寂寞,好复杂的心情,全都可以好的.
伤多痛,都释放.

你的笑陪我,直到阳光回来
ByeBye寂寞!ByeBye无奈!
拥抱的温暖让悲伤的一切闪开.
对了有你,对了有我;
太阳月亮,不赖!

謝謝.

Farewell

2009-12-20T22:01:00.000-08:00

Farewell,goodbye.
We meet and then we part.
After a long time,farewell becomes hard and painful.
And you'll cry.
Tears can't even describe how you feel and,
it feels like you know it'll go away someday.
But you can't stop it,
helplessness kicks in and there's nothing you can do but wait for that day.
Until then,you'll be weeping away in the corner,
hidden.
Hoping that no one discovers your tears and your tear-stained face.
You put on a brave front,
but what do you actually feel inside?
Inside,
with emotions,
uncontrollable.
Once you think about it,
what happens?
You know it and you try to control.
But control just won't listen to you permanently,won't it?
Alone,
and the tears will just fall,wouldn't they?
Once again,
uncontrollable and unstoppable.

Untouchable

2009-12-20T21:57:00.000-08:00

Untouchable like a distant diamond sky
I'm reaching out and I just can't tell you why

I'm caught up in you
I'm caught up in you

Untouchable
Burning brighter than the sun
And when you're close I feel like coming undone

In the middle of the night
When I'm in this dream
It's like a million little stars
Spelling out your name
You gotta come on, come on
Say that we'll be together
Come on, come on
Little taste of heaven

It's half full and I won't wait here all day
I know you're saying that you'll be here anyway

But you're untouchable
Burning brighter than the sun
Now that you're close I feel like coming undone

In the middle of the night
We could form this dream
I wanna feel you by my side
Standing next to me
You gotta come on, come on
Say that we'll be together
Come on, come on
Little taste of heaven

Oh, oh
I'm caught up in you
Oh, oh, oh

Untouchable
Burning brighter than the sun
And when you're close I feel like coming undone

End

2009-12-03T06:00:00.000-08:00

Oh no! 4 more weeks of hols and that's it! OMGGGGG. So fast. I swear I'll hate next year like shitzzz already. Next year equals to end of fun,freedom and chilling. Until the end of Os. I think I'll drop dead by then already due to exhaustion. Now,that won't be a surprise.

untitled

2009-11-21T07:41:00.000-08:00

You broke the pieces,now you're leaving me to pick them up.
Thank you.SO.MUCH.

S.i.l.e.n.c.e.

2009-09-20T20:28:00.001-07:00

It was silence.

You and me.

Then.

let it out

2009-07-12T05:07:00.000-07:00

Cry,scream. Don't keep it inside.
Yell,its okay.
Cry like there's no tomorrow.
That's alright.

Let it out,it'll be okay. :)

Whenever,

2009-07-04T07:14:00.000-07:00

Whenever I feel like giving up,you refuse to acknowledge that statement.
Whenever I don't understand,you try to help me time and time again,even though I might drive you crazy sometimes.
You know something is wrong,even though sometimes I hide it under a fascade.
You know some of my secret thoughts,that I've never told anyone.
Whenever I say something that doesn't sound coherant,you get what I mean.
You acknowledge my flaws and have accepted it.
So have I,applying to yours and mine.
You know when something pissed me off or is making me blow up inside,even though I didn't breathe a word about it or behave anything like it.
You help me time and time again,pulling me up when I've always thought I fell into a bottomless pit.
And I'd promised that I'll do the same when you feel the same.
Now,as I'm typing,I've realised that maybe I do not know you as much as I thought,and as much as you know me.
I know that I don't have to be alone,when I feel like shit.
Neither do you.
I just wanted to express my thanks and gratitude.

You know,like all the stars in the night sky. You're the biggest of them all,my guardian star.
Like how I am yours.
You know I'll be there if you fall,to put you back up.
To where you're supposed to be.

Thank you,stranger. :)

It feels good penning down some more serious thoughts after a tumultuous ride. The rollercoaster of positivity and negativity,happiness and unhappiness. It just the beginning of another ride. A more tumultuous one. But I'll ready,cos I'll be prepared. And awaiting its impending arrival. Its time to change my shadow.

holidays are da bomb

2009-06-12T01:44:00.000-07:00

No updates for 2 months. Heh. Sorry about that. Anyway,the holidays are hereeeee! I'm totally lovin' it,though I should honestly try and get some studying done. I did pretty okay for bio,though I freakin' missed A1 by one friggin' mark. Damn stupid. I HATE A MATH! ~~Its like useless bullshit.~~ Omg,I seriously hope Ronaldo isn't going to Real Madrid, if not I swear I'll cry and hate him forever. Okay,strike out the hate him forever part. Off to Taiwan in 2 days,can't wait.

P.S. Can someone help me with the binomial theroem or whatever shit,cos I don't get it and I can't do the quiz.

Sleepy

2009-04-04T22:58:00.000-07:00

Oh no oh no. Super sleep deprived nowadays. Can't believe I had a mere 3 hours of sleep because of lit. I feel so screwed. ): Chem's getting boring-er and boring-er. (And don't insult my super guai-ness okay! :DDD)And we had like 4 teachers for the past week cos miss lee was sick or smth. Mr lau was like damn loud and kept calling shujing jingijing. Damn funny. I was laughing like crazy. I don't want to switch seats. ): I'll miss asking cherri math questions and annoying her and being really hyper thanks to ashley,cherri,kim,shujing,fizzie. :D FSHEROES UNITED FTW! :DDD I'm called potato backside btw, cos I called fizzie watermelon head. Hahahahahhahahas. I honestly still dont get indices and log,they drive me nuts? I understand alpha and beta like so much better. Okay,I'm gonna be a nerd and start acing math too. Last week, queued like at 8 to see Fahrenheit at IMM. QUEUED LIKE 7 hours and 9 hours in total until my cds got signed. But luckily there was chris and jess. :) Felt damn waste money after buying the qing gong ban. D: OMGOMGOMG AND WU ZUN'S WAS SO CUTTTEEEE! He was like JIAYOU! and I was like OKAY! hahahahhahahahhs. I was damn freakin' hyper when I was on stage to let them autograph my album.

Me: Calvin,你是最awesome的 sunshine boy!
Calvin: 我是最awesome的 sunshine boy?(laughing and smiling)
Me: YEAH! (omg,and I was like laughing and smiling like crazy)
Calvin: Yeah!(almost laughing alr and he shook my hand)
(omg,I was like damn high)

Me:亞綸,你很可爱!(I totally forgot what I wanted to say.)
Aaron: 谢谢(smiling and he shook my hand)
(and I was still smiling like so proud of myself so saying that. -.- like i said,I was damn high)
[Twin and rachel,jealous much! >:D hahaha)

Me:大東,对不起没时间写你的信,真的很对不起!( cos me and chris wrote everybody elses' letters except his,cos really no time. When we finished writing calvin's we had to move alr,so I was moving and folding and decorating the front part of the letter plus it was damn packed,so couldn't write and I was really damn paiseh and damn apologetic)
大東: 写什么?( he didnt really quite catch what I said)
Me:没时间写你的信,对不起!真的很对不起! (I kept saying sorry)
大東:没关系啦.
Me:真的很对不起!
(then he shook my hand like damn apologetic also,and I felt damn bad. I was smiling damn apologetic also.)

Me:吳尊 ,你很帅! [I super forgot I wanted to say at that time. I wanted to say that he was the awesomest everrrr. :( ]
吳尊: 谢谢,要加油哦!
Me: OKAY!(the he shook my hand)
(Omg,I was still smiling and siao, was still damn high)

I was damn happy! hahahhahaaha. :DDDD then kept smiling and laughing non-stop. Then da dong and aaron drew smiley faces on my album. :DDDD da dong drew another smiley on my other album. OMG! I LOVE THEM SO MUCH. <3

Okay shit. My tv spolit and its the one with cable! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! D: and there's like bio test tmr and I haven't started studying yet. Okay must go and study now. BYEEEEEEEEEE!

Contrast

2009-03-24T03:32:00.000-07:00

Yesterday's tuition was damn boring and funny. How contrasting,I know! It was boring cos we're doing graphs-thanks to me but funny because my teacher's damn random. "I'm will go and commit suicide if I go bald." HAHA!

These days been kinda hectic. Sec 3 really got no life. SIGH. I can't imagine sec 4,oh wait I can. Its just worse than now.

&everybody's changing,morphing into people I don't recongnise anymore.

Exhausted

2009-03-04T07:36:00.000-08:00

Finishing SS up now,damn tired. Hope I do better for tournament tomorrow(like averaging 180+!) YESSSSS!That'll be my goal,so I hope I can achieve it. :D Anyway,did like WAYYYYYYYY better for bio than I expected and I hope I can continue getting that kind of grades.

GAH!Okayy,1 and a half more articles to go. Gonna go finish now.

BTW, HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY GUMMY(SHANICE) AT MIDNIGHT TODAY(5 MARCH!)
Hope you have the greatest birthday ever! :DDD

Thanks

2009-02-11T02:46:00.000-08:00

Thanks for all the birthday presents and wishes you guys gave me. :)

Stress has taken over,maybe I should just take a breather and step aside to really see what the world really is and how people really are. Wild thoughts rush to my head sometimes and maybe its hard to believe the truth,because I just don't want to believe in it at all.

Anw,been busy lately,may not update really often anymore.

Birthday

2009-01-29T06:30:00.001-08:00

Birthday in 1 and a half hours! YAY! :D But I havent done my lit essay. Screw homework and essays. Plus social studies was super screwed. -.- My freakin' ipod HUNG on me. Damn irritating,and its like what? A FULL BATTERY. F lah. Omg,then I forgot like how to do normal equations and a lot of math questions for the mock paper,and I took my time to think,then not enough time do the last question. SHITSHITSHIT. My score is so gonna be atrocious. That means I have to study before the E Math test. Okay,I'm determined to ace my bogey maths. :D Alright,gonna chiong my lit essay now. What a greattt day. :(

&thanks to jo and nat for making mine and chris's birthday presents into an amazing race to find them. Hahahahas. You guys brightened up my day. ILY. :)

Happy CNY!

2009-01-26T22:28:00.000-08:00

Happy Chinese New Year everyone!

3 more days to my birthday! :D

Urgh

2009-01-16T08:37:00.000-08:00

Shit. I think I'm getting sick soon. And there's like what chinese test on monday and chem test on friday,just before cny. How great huh! So much for thinking a math is easy, now its getting harder and I'm making absolutely careless mistakes. B div is like super early this year,and I hope I get into the team and my wrist hurts slightly when I exert force on it. Gah. OBS. OMG,its like super not fun digging shitholes,Cheryl!Anyway,we had to tell a joke for english today. Luckily,Ms Sie didnt call me up,cos I didnt prepare any joke.

Birthday in 13 days. :D

Tired.

2009-01-11T03:17:00.000-08:00

I'm tired.
Bombarded with homework.
And I don't want to go to school. D:

Chionging lit and math now. So much homework in just the first week. Aargh.

FINISHED.

2009-01-06T06:39:00.000-08:00

I am finally finished with my commonwealth essay. Yep! Gummy rocks for helping me edit my grammar and stuff. :D Ohmyshit,I was totally screwed during training. I could only hit pin 1 like 3 times in a row. Pin 2 keep hitting 2 in a row,then miss the third one and pin 10(bogey pin) hit only once. -.- Wth. Rolloffs on thursday. D: I hope I do okay(well,actually). :DDDD

I keeping getting sickkkk. Aaargh. On friday I had gastric,yesterday I had food poisoning(i think) then had to go home early, then today had a massive headache(not migraine) during training. Urgh. How unlucky!Or maybe I'm just allergic to school eh? :P Btw,I got my fahrenheit CD on friday,waited like 5 hours at bras brasah for it. -.- thanks charmarn for keeping me company tho! ILY. :D

School's starting

2008-12-28T02:06:00.000-08:00

School starts in approximately(sp?) 5 days. SHITSHITSHIT. And my tagboard censors SHIT,how lame is that huh! Not to mention, I have unfinished homework. Aargh. Bought to many clothes,so my mom said those are my chinese new year clothes. My birthday falls on the 5th day of chinese new year but NO PUBLIC HOLIDAY. ): Christmas was really funny. :D

me:omg you're such a noob
p:what's a noob?
me:you're such a noob for not knowing what's a noob
p:a noob means not knowing stuff right?
me:noob!

My cousins are downright hilarious.

p:eh! your cousin turning half gay already,must introduce exotic chinese girlfriend to him
a:i dont want chinese girlfriend,i want korean
me:then you can go and marry the da chang jing person
p:eh i was going to say that too.
(hahahahhahahahahahahs)

There were a lot of retarded and funny convos going on at that time. I was using the com and they were playing mahjong. hahhahahahahhahs

Merry Christmas

2008-12-25T07:05:00.000-08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

School starting. Lucky twinny and gummy! School's starting on the 12th for them. :) Still stuck on the commonwealth essay,but gummy did help me correct mistakes. Thanks gummy! :D My cousins are the lamest(and one of the awesomest!) people ever! They made me laugh super hard today while playing mahjong. HAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHS. (so maybe I might be wrong about them neglecting me everytime there's a gathering-because of the mega age difference,the closest older cousin is like 20 and there's 5 of them) But that's only on my mom's side,cos almost all gatherings are with my mom's side of the family. :D

IWANTTOEATCHEESECAKE! :)

Happy Christmas Eve!

2008-12-24T05:22:00.000-08:00

Happy Christmas Eve everyone!

Why does everybody think mixing coke and sprite will lao sai one ah? -.-

SHITBLOCK

2008-12-22T21:53:00.000-08:00

The concert was super fantastic!!!People were blocking me with their damn boards and I had to tiptoe so much during the concert, so much for front row seats man. Went out with yuxian ytd. Walked so much,was damn tired. Bought my mom's present and it costs so friggin much, I just think I might be the best daughter ever. Fine,so I shared with my sister. School starts in like next week omfs. Got around doing the commonwealth essay and now I'm stuck. CRAPPP. Christmas in like 2 days,gonna ask my cousins for help with the math questions. GRRRR. Anyway,some pictures from the concert. :D Thank me twinnn. :D

Yay.

2008-12-18T18:43:00.000-08:00

TODAY IS THE CONCERTTTTTT OMG I CAN'T WAIT!!!!!! :D

BTW,HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY AWESOMEST TWIN EVER PANG YUXIAN!!!
I'm so gonna miss all the crazy and retarded times we had throughout the two years. &I still have the class picture of your haircut in primary 1. :D I LOVE YOU SO DUPER MUCH and I'm so gonna miss you when you go njc. :( Yep,I promised you I'll help you take loads of pictures of AARONYANYALUN today,so I'll try. :D

Tuesday:
Went JB and spent a lot of money just on a day trip and did I mention my mom said MY THIGHS WERE FAT?!

Wednesday:
Had CIP with nat at Liang Court then after that we went to wonder around clarke quay like tourists,me gawking at every pretty sight. Yeah. We went to the pubs/club street kinda thingy and it was really cool. Haha.

Thursday:
Went out for dinner with twin[yuxian],steph,nat,chris,gummy[shanice],teen zhen,deborah,peiyi and ju at Sakae @ Suntec. Nat,teen zhen and I ordered buffet and we ate like a super lot. See,I always knew I was special,nat(hinthint). :D I was poking gummy and she called me chicken. Hahahahhahahahahahs. I was disturbing peiyi during dinner too and I was singing the quackquack song. EHHHHHHHHH!!! WHY NOBODY BELIEVE I'M LIKE DAMN QUIET IN CLASS ONE????!!!! Sheesh. Peiyi made me drop my mochi,cos she made me laugh,so nat gave me her mochi. YAYYYYYYY! I wanted to eat cheesecake. Ohoh,steph only brought like $13 and she was like must eat something cheap. HAHHAAHHAHAHAHHA damn funny. Everyone wanted to sabo her. After dinner,peiyi,gummy and teen zhen left. :( then the rest of us went and walked around

I love you guys so much.

Right on

2008-12-11T00:17:00.000-08:00

I got sunburnt and got a bit of tshirt tan from yesterday. Then when I was reading in bed,my sister so randomly said "Why your nose so glossy and red?And your face too?" Then I replied "Sunburnt duh,if not what else could it be." I thought she was gonna sing the Rudolph The Rednosed Reindeer song. -.- Last training today,damn sad. Cos it was twin's last training. :(Anw,breakfasted together then I was like "Eh steph,today is one of the rare days you dont have spots on your shirt." Steph: "Yah" Then she hit the chopstick and it flew and hit her sleeve,so she had (a) spot(s). HAHHAHAHAHHAHHAHAHS. My thumb really hurts now from training. Decided to save some money after cabbing everytime from training,so took a bus to the mrt station with yuxian twinny and steph. Omg,waiting for the bus was like damn funny,cos steph was like asking and saying a lot of retarded/funny things.
Me: (called my sister) Eh charlotte,I'm not going to clementi(grandma's house)(disconnected call)
Steph: How come you called salmon(sounded like that anw) and said you werent going_____(I forgot what she said)
Me: I didnt call salmon,I said charlotte and she's my sister and I said that I'm not going to my grandma's house and ____ refers to my grandma's house!
Steph: Then where are you going?
Me: Uhhh,where else?HOME DUH! How many times have I said that?
Steph: Ohhhh
Me&twin: OMGGGG!!! (bursts into laugher)

Then I forgot the other super funny convo.

And the bus totally drove past the bustop,cos none of us were waving,not like we noticed it until it drove past. -.- Right. Went home,tried to open the door,but it couldnt open. Thought it was bolted,so called home but no one answered,then I thought maybe the door lock got jammed or something then I panicked and called my mom,cos I didnt want to stay outside(more like locked out) waiting for my maid and sister to come home. My mom didnt pick up but opened the door. Right. Then just now the sky suddenly turned super dark and rained damn heavily. Had to run into every room to close the windows. Yay! There's HEROS later at 10,gonna watch it.

BTW,HEROS IS THE MOST AWESOMEST SHOW EVERRRRRRRRRR! :D

escape

2008-12-10T04:19:00.001-08:00

Escape today. Erm,the rides ARE NOT scary at all. And I'm proud to say I didnt crash my go-kart! Yoohoo! Haunted house everybody was grabbing each other yeah and I got pushed in front thank you very much-not like I'm not scared at all. :D anw,pushed twin's friend in front of me after that. So yeah,sat the viking ship so many times,didnt even managed to sit at the end at all. Twin lost her ___ ,hope you find it soon. &go to hell the stupid person who stole twin's ___. (: Anw,was damn tired after that. Went to tampiness mall after that yeah,ate ice-cream then when home. Felt disgusted and went to bathe. China pictures below(the post before this) btw.

P.S.Enjoy your shanghai trip bestfriend! (:

Totally lovin' this song again.

I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

I know that you are something special
To you I'd be always faithful
I want to be what you always needed
Then I hope you'll see the heart in me

I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

Yeah

You might need time to think it over
But I'm just fine moving forward
I'll ease your mind
If you give me the chance
I will never make you cry c`mon let's try

I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

Am I crazy for wanting you?
Maybe do you think you could want me too?
I don't wanna waste your time
Do you see things the way I do?
I just wanna know that you feel it too
There is nothing left to hide

I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I won't let another minute go to waste

I want you and your soul
I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
Ooooooo
Beautiful Soul, yeah
Oooooo, yeah
Your beautiful soul
Yeah

Pictures

2008-12-10T04:04:00.000-08:00

Btw,go ahead and steal,Rachel,Yuxian,Lecindra,Joanna,Shuwen. Not like I didnt still steal-but ONE only lah!

Gave up

2008-12-06T00:50:00.001-08:00

Okay,I kinda gave up on the china post,so I'll just post whatever I wrote that time so yeah. SAW FAHRENHEIT AT IMM the other day and totally shook their hands! Wu Zun went like "Singaporeans always say this: Wah Lau!",damn funny,then Calvin spoke singlish "All of you must buy tickets to our concert lah okay!" Super funny man. I shook Aaron's hands like twice. (Jealous much :P) Right,training's been damn fun and breakfasting with twinny yuxian,steph,jo and nat is like always damn funny because of a certain stephanie ho who always have chilli spots on her shirt. And thursday was damn funny,steph was talking about some guy flexing his muscles at her in vietnam. RIGHT. Read twinny's blog for that. :D Ah right crap. School's starting in like 4-5 weeks? That's damn fast,what kind of holiday is this man?Still got homework to do,not that I completed any yet. Then on tuesday,I called peiyi stinky flower the rafflesia then she called hwee ting stinky feet then I called hwee ting stinky feet then she called me stinky frog then I called magdalene stinky maggie mee. That day damn funny la. Hahahahahaha. Peiyi is like the most retarded senior everrrr! :D Some other training session we had to put like a lot of tapes,so I stuck mine with a hump and made peiyi stick hers with a hump too. Haha,then it made like a perok perok sound and I liked that sound,and kept going saying perok perok. :DDD Heehee :DDDDDDD I'm gonna change the skin,so yeah. Gonna go out with twinny again this week. YAY!

Super overdued

2008-11-07T07:34:00.000-08:00

Havent't been blogging lately. Haha,anw I'm halfway(okay,maybe not halfway,but one quarter) through my china trip post. Though i kinda forgotten where i went on the second day. Very smart, I know. Right. Anw,my dad finally bought me my Manchester United jersey at the airport when he came to pick me up-with my sis and mom. But its not the Ronaldo one,though I'm actually quite contented already. :D Went to watch James Bond today with Cheryl. Haha. Its damn good,seriously.

BIGBIG ANNOUNCEMENT: Cheryl is really fickle about food. :P

Gonna go watch HSM 3 with twin[Yuxian],Lecindra and Rachel and dunno who else tmr. Yeah. Maybe I'll upload some china trip pictures after I'm finished with my china trip post. Which I have put off for a few days alr. Its 11 plus now,almost 12,gonna sleep soon. I'm a guai kia-oxymoron. Really. Ahhh whatever.

China trip

2008-11-05T18:19:00.000-08:00

I think a post was overdued a long long time.Haha,anw I missed China and all my china friends andand all the crazy times there. Esp the hotels!!!

Day one:

I was late in meeting at the airport,no thanks to my alarm. Aargh. Only slept like 1 hour on the plane and the food was damn nice. I think I kept crapping to Hui Ning and Shuwen-my plane buddies, cos the movies there wasnt as nice as the one when we returned. Anw,after we reached Shanghai,we took a bus to Hangzhou which was supposedly to take only 2-3 hours,but took 5 HOURS! and twin was sleeping throughout almost the whole journey. I couldnt sleep on the bus. Then we had dinner,which was horrible and disgusting and Rachel kept saying the vegetables were cooked from hair oil,cos it was so oily. Hahahahahahs. Then we went back to the hotel,it was like CIVILISATION man. Went to Lecindra's room and played cards and ate cup noodles, which I brought up and down-from my room(10th floor) to her room(9th floor),then back to mine. I think I looked like some siao person.

Ohmygosh

2008-10-13T07:16:00.000-07:00

Omg,my results were so bad I dont even wanna talk about it. Saturday sucked thanks to ahem. Shan't elaborate on it,waste of time,breath and space. Alright,anyway,I've got nothing to blog about yet. So byebye. &training starts tmr,yay!

Party Time

2008-10-11T18:38:00.000-07:00

EOYs are over and its party time! :DDD Off to Hangzhou/Shanghai in 12 days! Whoohoo~

red

2008-09-12T04:38:00.000-07:00

My nose is damn red now from blowing the whole day. Yesyesyes,I've got the flu and I did like skipping today so I feel damn fit. :D I had a sore throat on the day of oral,like wtbs?!!!!Okay, I hope I didn't screw english up,I totally screwed the chinese one up, and I actually did quite okay with 31/40. APPLAUSE!Okay,lame. Who am I kidding,my chinese oral mark sucked,though its consisdered quite high for some people(ahemahem,raise your hand up if you said shut up la, i got damn low-winkwink)Haha.YAYAYAY,my mummy let me go on the school's china trip,but I hope she doesn't not let me go taiwan in dec. :D:D:D:D:D teddy,twin and charmarn are going too! YIPPPEEEE. That's 10 seconds of elation and now is back to mugging. After EOYs,the elation continues.

aargh.

2008-08-27T04:19:00.000-07:00

Ah! Bloody shit. Maths and science are so gonna pull my originally high average down. RAWR. damndamndamn. Watch me man, I'm so gonna get straight As for EOYs and I'm gonna start mugging now. >:D JOE JONAS IS HAWWWT. haha. Random,right. I'mboredI'mboredI'mbored. Let me recall what interesting stuff I did in the past 3/4 weeks...NOTHING. Unless you count the retarded things that we do in class..then that's a lot.

&breaking point

tired

2008-08-06T07:18:00.000-07:00

I used up all my hyperness in class ytd and then I was so dead for training. Felt dead tired and it was the first time I felt tired during training! Heheh. Everyone around was doing retarded stuff and we were arm wrestling, talking crap and laughing like mad people.Then Umi was doing her retarded bubble gum thing which I thought was so funny. Haha okay,lame. My partners and neighbouring partners are so fun to sit around with. LALALALALA~Anyway, went out with Myra, her friend Lizzie and Steph to orchard. Saw jemima ching TWICE and I said yo and she dao-ed me. Wth man. -_- Got breaking dawn today!YOOHHOOOO!Haha and I bought a matching dress with Myra, which I think its nice,while my maid thought it looked ugly. Whatev man. RAWR. Geesh, I havent done my history essay yet. Gonna do now.

the anderson song

2008-07-26T05:01:00.000-07:00

The Anderson Song
Anderson son son
He is better than Kleberson
Anderson son son
He's the midfield magician
To the left, to the right
To the samba beat all night
He is fast, he is class
And he shits on Fabregas

oh man,a boy sung that song at the national stadium ytd where the brazilians were training and anderson noticed, gave him his boots,signed it, had a convo with him and they took pictures. AHHHHHHHH! I'm envious. ):

FINISHED!

2008-07-21T07:45:00.000-07:00

YES!!! I'm finally done with my my lit charcter study after 7 friggin' hours! WHOO HOO! I took like 5 for Malvolio and 2 for Sebastian. I'm happy its finally done,now I'm gonna study for the math test tmr. Bye!

Over!

2008-07-21T02:18:00.000-07:00

Tournament is over and I didn't do very well. :( aargh. But C div was so super fun! Espeically, when we were bowling with the acs barker guys,they were so retarded that it made them damn funny to be bowling next to. On Saturday, went to Michelle's party at RTC. We went bowling there first and I got 159 for the first game and a turkey for the next game,though we never finished. :( Gah,why did I do so bad for singles and the second day of quartet. >:( -pissed with myself- AAAARGH. Anyways,then we went shopping at Orchard and we told neos! Thanks michelle for the grrreat party! :DDD then after that I went all the way to occ with charmarn, only to be told that the acs coach took our school flag. like whaaaat! anyway,been watching devil beside you, and its actually not bad. haha. I LOVE MIKE HE JUN XIANG! After Danson of course! Haha. Alright,back to doing literature now. RAWRRRRRRR. I'm gonna go nuts already.

I HATE THE FRIGGIN' CHEM TEST,DID SO DAMN BAD.

JY!

2008-07-10T03:37:00.000-07:00

Hey bowlers!JY for doubles tomorrow yeah!We gotta be upupup there! :D

screwed

2008-07-08T04:59:00.000-07:00

Screwed the green revolution part for the geog paper today. >:( and don't even mention today's singles,it really sucked. :( so imma gonna do even better for doubles,i seriously can't afford to get anymore sucky scores like seriously. Gonna fix all the problems during training on thursday!YEAH. Went to occ with justine,twin and steph to test out the lanes 148,157,112 on sunday. The last game is so not counted,cos I was anyhow throwing with ipod in my ears,yeah it was distracting and we were doing slow bowling. haha. freak la. I've got blisters and skin peel-y thingies all over my right hand,and the plaster on my thumb looks weird,but jo thinks its cute. haha. hope it heals before doubles starts. steph and chris came to my house ytd to study and play haha and we __________ 2 people. damn funny. I'm exhausted now and I dont want to go to school tmr,arrrgh. Yes,and the science test? SCREWED,IT WAS SO FRIGGIN' HARD!

CHEM.

2008-06-30T04:45:00.000-07:00

Chem test tmr and I'm gonna ace it! :D:D:D:D heehee. Okay, REVISION TIME!

Valency +1: Hydrogen(H),Lithium(Li),Sodium(Na),Potassium(K)
Valency +2: Beryillium(Be),Magnesium(Mg),Calcium(Ca)
Valency +3: Boron(B),Aluminium(Al)
Valency +-4: Carbon(C),Sillicon(Si)
Valency -3: Nitrogen(N),Phosphorus(P)
Valency -2: Oxygen(O),Sulphur(S)
Valency -1: Fluoride(F),Chloride(Cl)
Valency 0: Helium(He),Neon(Ne),Argon(Ar)

YAY! I can remember. I'm such a good rememberer! :D Haha,alright,study is a BIGBIG priority for the test tmr,I must ace it! :D

To twin-Yupyup,I owe you BIGGGGGGGGGGG. :D

nuts

2008-06-26T07:32:00.000-07:00

First week of school and I'm always tired,even if I fall asleep at 8-10 plus. Its like so freaking early la!Ugh. I feel so lethargic. NSW Eng test ytd,anyhow do. Lalalalalalala~I dont really care about that. Oh man,algebra is driving me a little nuts,I totally forgot how to do fractions. :X Shit. Training sucked,my average was 127,so l0usy luh,but I was really hyper and I was singing the smurf song.Haha!Christine,Deborah,Jo all go and change my name.Chris went to change it to Samantha Claus,cos I wishing everyone merry christmas the past few days! :P Then Deborah went to change it to _______,wth la.Ugh.Tmr is michelle's last day of school at sc,oh mannnn. ): I'm so gonna friggin' miss you. ): I hate filing. Crap. Went out with charmarn ytd to collect something,haha then we missed so many trains to gossip!:D Bright note,mrcheng is not gonna teach us geog anymore,yay.haha whatev,I'm super bored. Hmmm,I think I shall go and learn my tingxie and then go and sleep.See,I damn guaikia. HAH!Like real.

Siti: "I stick up for him then you stick him uh... down."
HAHA!ILY coolio partner!

Night peeps!

school reopens

2008-06-22T06:44:00.000-07:00

School reopens tmr!Ugh,waking up early again,no more late sleep ins. >:( I'm proud of myself for finishing almost all my homework! :D:D:D somemore,mostly is not last minute!YAY!Lit test on tuesday,shakespeare. Ugh. I haven't really touched my twelfth night,except to do the log. Right. I miss shannon and brandon,havent seen them in a really long time,awwww man. ): Thanks all the bowlers for making trainings super fun by talking loads of crap. :D Especially steph,for her entertaining ways. :X Oh,get well soon steph,get out of the hospital!Oh wait,you got discharged today. :X Heheh. I bought lots new of stationary for school,cos I lost lots of pens alr. Plus point for school: My new partners are absolutely rockin' and bearing with my crap and craps with me. Heehee. :) Ohoh,thanks nat,twin and brendan for helping with my maths homework. You guys rock. Haha. :)

Funny convo with twin on friday:
Me:Twin,you support Manchester United with me right?
Twin:Uhh...I don't even watch football...Er,Ronaldo's hot,so I support his club.
Me:Ronaldo plays for Manchester United!!!
Twin:Oh,then I support Manchester United.

HAHAHA! I love twin<3.

The night's over
You're fading
It always ends the same
Your head's on my shoulder
As we pull away

So many good times you and I
It makes it so hard to say good-bye

'Cause it always feels like Sunday
When I drive you home
Maybe, we'll be fine by Monday
But tonight I'm alone
Baby, when I can't be with you
I still want you close
'Cause it always feels like Sunday
When you go
Mmmm

Your scent on my t-shirt
It never seems to fade
An empty seat now
Next to me but
Memories fill the space

Every moment you're not here
Reminds me how much I need you

'Cause it always feels like Sunday
When I drive you home
Maybe, we'll be fine by Monday
But tonight I'm alone
Baby, when I can't be with you
I still want you close
'Cause it always feels like Sunday
When you go
When you go on Sunday
Go on Sunday
Go on Sunday

Feels like Sunday
It feels like Sunday

'Cause it always feels like Sunday
When I drive you home
Maybe, we'll be fine by Monday
But tonight I'm alone
Baby, when I can't be with you
I still want you close
'Cause it always feels like Sunday
Feels like Sunday
Fells like Sunday
When you go
When you go ooh

movie

2008-06-20T02:42:00.000-07:00

Went to watch Penelope with twin and yasmeen today. Haha,it was quite nice. We took neos and we all look damn funny,haha. Alright,I'd gotta go and finish my homework. ): BYE.

Well you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracks
And now I'm trying to get back
Before the cool done run out
I'll be giving it my bestest
Nothing's going to stop me but divine intervention
I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love
Listen to the music of the moment people dance and sing
We're just one big family.
It's your God-forsaken right to be loved love loved love love

So I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

I've been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror
And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer
But my breath fogged up the glass
And so I drew a new face and I laughed
I guess what I be saying is there ain't no better reason
To rid yourself of vanitys and just go with the seasons
It's what we aim to do
Our name is our virtue

But I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm yours
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

Well no no, well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love love
Listen to the music of the moment come and dance with me
I like one big family (2nd time: I like happy family)
It's your God-forsaken right to be loved love love love

I won't hesitate no more
Oh no more no more no more
It's your God-forsaken right to be loved, I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

No I won't hesitate no more, no more
This cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours, I'm yours

national age group

2008-06-19T06:58:00.000-07:00

Did slightly better today,but still not good enough. I freaking dropped my ball for the first time in my whole entire life in front of eveyone and twin told me everyone looked. Damn embarrassing la. &since I lost the bet ytd, I had to ask for ______'s number tdy. But twin,you never tell _______ & __________ that they _____________________________ and you lost the bet today... Then at yishun some stupid gangsters stalked us until we had to take the stairs and run...with our bowling bags. That was really freaky. Plus twin wanted to do something so funny,that when I was drinking water,I choked. I thought I was gonna die. Lol. Haha,it scared the rest too. Sorry! :)

Hainan

2008-06-18T00:07:00.000-07:00

Back from Hainan on Friday. On the day I was dued to come back,I had a high fever,had to take panadol to temporary bring the fever down so I can take the plane. My sis had the fever a day after me,after I had recovered. The scenery was pretty but it was really hot,hotter than Singapore. It was a freaking 37 degrees!!!!But I bought lots of shows and a couple of CDs. :P Haha,anyway went for national age group all sick(with no fever la!),but it was no excuse for my poor performance. I did supersupersupersupersupersupersupersupersupersupersuper bad. ): But I'll try even harder for the quartet tmr. JIAYOUUU everyone! :D

:)

2008-06-05T21:18:00.000-07:00

AAAAAH. I have one friggin' big pile of homework still uncompleted. RAWRRRRR. >:( Crappy,now I must try to finish all by today,then I can go and holiday in peace. Anyone got gao zhi to lend me???I forgot to buy before school ended,and now I cannot do my chinese homework. BLAHHHHH. Hmmm...and I still have to study Twelfth Night for the Lang Arts test coming up on the week school reopens. Damn,my dad doesnt want to activate my auto roam, I think I shall pester him till he does. :P Last week, stephanie spilled milo on herself and on nat's magazine during breakfast and 2 days before that, she found a cockroach in her soup,after eating like 3/4 of her noodles. Haha,so typical of her. ;D Lol. Yay!I'm happy I got my beloved Heros on DVD. HAHA! I'm gonna watch and watch and watch and watch. I'm still only on the 2 or 3 disc only. : But, I gotta finish my homework first! See, I can prioritise. xD I'm gonna leave tmr to Hainan,yeah,so miss me. :D:D:D Alright, I'm going off for lunch with my mom and her friend. :) Bye peeps.

WET!

2008-06-05T00:33:00.000-07:00

Training was fun today,we played 7 up. Haha. When we finished, it rained so heavily,Justine lent me her umbrella,but as the lao shi kindly offered me and peiyi a ride to the mrt station, I passed the umbrella to magdalene. (: I got wet running in the rain,then after that when me and peiyi were walking to the mrt,we got splashed by a bus and we became super wet. GRRRR. >:( I felt so dirty and I bathed like 4.5 hours ago only,went home and bathed again. Going off to Hainan this saturday,YAY! :D:D:D I'll miss you guys! ): But I'll try to convince my dad to activate my auto roam on my phone,so I can sms you guys and vice versa. (: C div is approaching and I hope we'll do well! :D `JIAYOUU! ;D